Actually...

"Actually" is a term,
I don't like it;
so I should actually
I should avoid it in future.
It may work in speech,
but not in thought;
because in everything I do,
I feel a wavering.

"Actually" never stands alone,
criticism always follows,
doubt constantly intrudes,
clouds the firm view.

"Actually" clearly restricts
like a step backwards,
gives every possibility
only a piece at a time.

Should, could, should I,
I should have done what I did,
that I decided to do
into another?

This word always calls into question
and brings annoyance,
because it doesn't really tell me
what I have to do.

Ideas are very spontaneous,
is "actually" their death;
the conscience - it becomes bad,
without any need.

But in the end I decide,
what is useful and good for me,
even if this stupid word
gets in the way.

And so all I can really do
only to ignore it.
I actually knew that -,
What could possibly happen?

Should I now tell
to other people?
It's not really necessary,
because they already know it.